Are you the Devil?

Yeah..man...sigh.. I should be asking this question myself. When things get closer, u realised many more secrets de other party is hiding and they are slowly spilling out but I have nothin more to spill. Guess after all these years Im jz blinded again?? Where dat person isnt getting over da 10 years shitty pasts and i had done my part walking a new path by getting out of a recent firehole and let all things go wanting to start a new.

My heart can't take another break and encounter fresh wounds right after what I had gone thru all these while. If i knew that you might inffect me with all over emotional turmoil and hurting facts again I wonder why i am still standing here when I should just get the Fuck out! Don't want Disappointments coming by waves after another. I know I gota be in ur shoes but yea if I were in ur shoes all i gota say is you are not ready. And I am just not lucky to be in Love anyways.

I don't wana be hurt again...cuz I know this time if i am da one too invovled and plan too much I will be deadly and i know... it is leathal. I can't afford to go thru another disappointment by Love or dat person I thought might be an Angel. But Turn out might be a Devil too...

STUPIDITY

There's no use to be determine or to believe when the other person isn't sharing ur same contented feeling or goal. Even if there's love. I learned sumthing today and I am thoroughly disappointed... Theres no miracle or fairy tale that I should believe in. People need human contact but I guess I'm da odd one out that dun need any contact and stay comfort with my own trust. And this? = STUPIDITY in me T.T I dun get it why I am repeating the same old mistake over and over again for believing sumthin that don't exist. It sucks isn't it?

Shi Nian Ni

Wo hao nan gua, Wo de xin... Hao thong. Si wo juo chuo le ma? Wo hao xiang ni dan wo xin hao luan. Ru gua ni de huai xin qing shi guan yu dao wo... Wo jue de ni je yang bu kai xin de xia chu... Dou mei you yi si. Nar 4 nian dou shi bai fei. Hai Liang ge Li bai ba le jiu je yang. Wo xiang Ni shi bi wo fang qi ni le ba... Xiang nian ni dan ye mei yong le. Thong khu, nan shou ye bu chi dao Wo juo chuo le sen me.

Pointless of sharing

Gd it's time u bcum my replacement again. I need a hug n a shoulder frm u Lols wtf. U always knew ur only a replacement fr dat sumone special n u still dun mind dats wat I'm proud of u still smiling sweetly everyday to me. Thx for Being der for me whn I need to lie to my brain dat nothing changes and for ur understanding. Haha I think I'm goin insane this gotta stop man lols but I'm always ur number 1 fan right?So dun worry haha. Man all my imagination. Pointless and duno shud I Jz let go n continue to be with who Im not with. *muacks* ur the Best GD.

CluelesS

L.O.v.e = ignored... F it or.. = just myself goin insane. So F dat too! Goodnight xuen. Jz ignore watever ok. Be good to urself. It's a better day tomorrow w/o anybody messin with my poor confused little mind n my life. All can Jz get da F out.