Cherish the Dream

Cherish flowers that represents a genuine heart, with gentle words, with a Love that knows what's done can't be unwind, moments that had missed can't be relived. 12 roses is to be yours forever some said to be steady but to me is just to be yours forever inside your heart that does not differentiate relations. Love is just only the 2 people who relate each other without trying to differentiate who comes first or involving other people in the scene. Love is a matter of private intimate affair which relates 2 Souls that is kind and gentle to each other, to protect and not to believe one has any bad intention in hurting you. Love isn't it pure and simple. It Was..but 2006 ago. It was ... Used to be magical and infinite. All there's left is heartaches and toothaches the same time so infinite.. The previous dentist did wrong prediction and I'm glad I went all the way to this new dentist that also allows me to place my flowers there for a cooler environment than inside my stuffy car.

Pikachu Pokemon the 1st Cheer of a Disillusioned Day

After all the heartless conversation that leaves my heart empty and my mind total disillusioned, I came out of the building by the end of the day thinking of going back. Empty as I am in the back of my head just get the Pokemon GO so that I can walk and hatch some Pokemon Eggs. Well I stood for a while cuz the Sightings shows a Pikachu! Well ever since the I didn't ran away from the 3 Pokemon's during the 1st training, I ended up with a XL Squirtle lol. I think it's worth a wait this time for this famous Pika. In just less den few minutes when I decided to walk a different route instead of that everyday route, that Pikachu appears! Well what a cheer even if my problems a mess in my life but at least I achieve to get a Pika for the game and my 1st Psyduck of course since I am slow in playing the game cuz I don't stick to it. I only on this game when I'm free or to fill up my waiting time.

Travel Items

Today yet another "Rainy Day", I am still in the phase of mourning mood myself and somehow thought of replacing my travel items which was broken (secondary thought). Therefore I went to Daiso they have the best and sometimes really practical stuff we need daily for a good price! I got the travel set kit bag full transparency.. Then followed by a foldable slippers which I don't really need it yet but oh well.. The reason I went to Daiso mainly is thought of my mommy getting her a soup ladle (Primary thought) ....gonna give it to her this Sunday =)

G-Dragon and The Joker Wallpaper

Ya know...this was what in my head all along while watching Suicide Squad..lol. Kwon Ji Yong and Jared Leto my favourite all along.

A Love that Sets Trap...? What in the World you call that Love?

All I see is a Meow lil biatch setting a trap filming Johnny Depp these dirty work...you call it "still Love him??" My Egg ok

Personal Reflection on The Egg by Andy Weirs

The Egg - short story adaptation by Andy Weir

There are several versions of this story in film but I prefer version better. Well, advisably read the story below would be much more interesting before watching the short clip adaptation!
Can't imagine that the whole time we are interacting to myself and reflect to me all alone we were all one? The time i do know it stays all the time that all the dimensions and different era are repeating itself and living the same time be it now 2015 and 1920, It has never faced out. But certain concept i find it weird but some is true cus why do we have words like Soul mate & 2 become 1? However, life is hard to understand I cant really accept day to day we love, fight, cared, hate, sad for others are actually ourselves all alone? That to me as normal human here find it hard to depict or convince my mind.

The Clip above here is The Egg and below is the whole original story text.

Quote "THE EGG" by Andy Weir
You were on your way home when you died.

It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.

And that’s when you met me.

“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”

“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.

“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”

“Yup,” I said.

“I… I died?”

“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.

You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”

“More or less,” I said.

“Are you god?” You asked.

“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”

“My kids… my wife,” you said.

“What about them?”

“Will they be all right?”

“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”

You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.

“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”

“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”

“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”

“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”

“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”

You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”

“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”

“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”

“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”

I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.

“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”

“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”

“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”

“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”

“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”

“Where you come from?” You said.

“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”

“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”

“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”

“So what’s the point of it all?”

“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”

“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.

I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”

“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”

“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”

“Just me? What about everyone else?”

“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”

You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”

“All you. Different incarnations of you.”

“Wait. I’m everyone!?”

“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.

“I’m every human being who ever lived?”

“Or who will ever live, yes.”

“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”

“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.

“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.

“And you’re the millions he killed.”

“I’m Jesus?”

“And you’re everyone who followed him.”

You fell silent.

“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”

You thought for a long time.

“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”

“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”

“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”

“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”

“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”

“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”

And I sent you on your way.:

Dear Capricorn, Speak your mind

When we love someone we tend not to filter what our mind speaks... Well i dont too but nowadays speaking out mind seems risky while yeah conversation it os so obviously one sided. I had accumulaye up quite a lot to tell but no chance at all. Somehow dey will be soon oudated frm my brain n dissappear cuz u knew not lile its important to be heard.

Dear Capricorn you are born to follow rules to be stricted in rules u agreed in weather they exists or being created.

Dear Capricorn when u are in love u wilp be loyal madly in love n determined the special love inside u for a lifetime and hate changes. The strong side of you the firmness of you will be shaky and melted away without ypu knowing and left an empty shell. You hold on ur dear life with rules and promises from the oldest pages till your death. You scarificed all the space u have because you believe space is what you have with the love one. You keep yourself grounded shut down from the outside real world waiting and waiting givng all the time u have left only for that special one believing u might hurt your love one tiny ego feelings if ur more social like u used to and believing they will love you more than ever will do da same like we used to.

But here is the turning point when the other person backed out they need their own time and no more identifying their space and time are shared with you..Dear Capricorn no matter how unwilling you are to let go...it is time to let go and go find back yourself where people are amazed n you feel actually existed.

Dear Capricorn probably this is a better way eventhough your heart are still with the good old promised and created old routines where both agreed and love them...but it is no point to remember One sidedly. People r starting to live back the reality and so should you too than being miserable everyday and night reminiscence back the old times and old routines where hearts are fond and sweet. Sweet opposites will be toxic. You are not gonna initiate to meet when you know they just do it for the sake of worry i complained they dont do their part. So therefore they used some "Spare" time like 10 mins before out or after they tired out themselves well dey dont even ask to see you no more. All dey did was hint not lile dey said dey miss you and wanted to see you immediately. They will be too hapi to be true when you were not around so they can feel such relieve and back to their own life.

But...

Dear Capricorn you knew deep down inside you wished things were how they used to be. Meanwhile being the perfectionist you suffered like crazy meeting the changes in life...but u stayed Cool so cool the one you cared does not even tried to melt you anymore. Devastated as you were n being a realist you know yoou have to accept changes. That is to let things go let old things pass unwillingly and lead back your own life with no fear alone.

You were quote surprised people who sees you only part of the day knew your life is an empty and livng all alone. They knew you have parents of course who doesnt know some do understand we shud be grateful but dey know wat makes you leading a loner Capricorn is dat ypur parents are living their own life and world too.. What is left was blood connection amd not really the interaction you need normally daily and plus the one you found in your life doesnt exists in your current place but elsewhwr.

Dear Capricorn you were tough because the people who can see what you were goin through were only acquiantance and they personally told you they cant take the life that you had. They would have died than to have it. I love you Capricorn you are the toughest coolest sign.

Mini Journey Diary

Looking at my Pinky Mini Journey Diary, there goes my anticipation looking forward. With the mind power to save, to be discipline and do what I should be doing and to love people who love me regardless of who I am <3 that's what I Love about my BB Froggie my willpower to live. But to remember my odd dreams this morning seems like there are issues of difficult people that I choose not to deal with cuz will bring some despair and mind constraint. I am gaining a quality mood to deal with my art, I had writers block, however there won't be any artistic block occurs to-date, it is the dumbass MOOD and head heaviness blocking me out.

That's my emo writings for today sum positive as well as negative balance of Ying&Yang as usual..cuz da weather is very cooling but so inconsistent till i feel kinda Bluey...Alright gonna get movin'.

90 Degrees

I am just randomly doing something and left some patches of design to wrap up the whole meaning of 90Degrees. I need...MOOD lol...Hope later some inspiration will seeped into my soul. Then it will be and added graphic to my site collection YEAY!

SWEET sleeping froggie

It is a day to remember to see my sweet froggie smiling into sleep n relaxed forehead.... *Hugsssss tight* it is really a day to remember <3

Strong Human Senses

Sumhow I have always knew through psychologically human's memory is a widespread of an intriguing technology complicated then any other technology devices.. Memory stored is infinite and codes down various types of situation, plus more den 5 senses are working the same time including things that provokes our memory to arise. Such as now what deeply reminds my time spent in being in love yet in silent moments was the hot aroma of the hazelnut old town coffee. Everytime I drink, the taste of it brought me back to the times right exactly where we were, brought back the moment in time. It is hard to explain as I am most sensitive person towards senses and emotions.

Yesterday I stopped by SP Tesco, however my mind was telling me to avoid lookin at the KFC or Old Town coffee shop because it will only made me see how my dearest Nana spent her kopi time there or even grumble at me and papa whn she was still... alive... Places where she went with us and time spent brought back a lot memories to me evev a few seconds of flashes goes a longway deeply pierced right into my heart, it felt heavy in my heart and painful to breath.

I passed by old streets, or any mall all I can do was remembering to see her there and then waiting for me and Papa patiently with a hot Milo as when she aged she cant follow us that much walking around but I will walk with her slowly no matter it is inch by inch or cm by cm I held her hand and prevent her to lope sided ways (that was when an early symptom of stroke I should have realised T__T..sigh *tears* missing Nana) ...Still remember the warmth of her hand, the grip of her fingers and the veins and marks that has developed on her hands and fingers over time. I can remember every inch of her skin on hands and her face which I am an art person I stored all my images so damn well It just hits me in the heart feeling sore bleeding tearing and hurts, especially for the person I love like Nana...very very well everything about her.. T_T sigh. 

It hurts so bad to see her in my imagination my Nana is sitting in the food stall with a hot cuppa Milo or Kopi waiting for me after I bought my things but this time it is entirely different...her image is only there waiting but I never step into that McD or KFC or held up her hand again to bring her to my car and driver her home together... Her image of sitting there just stood still clearly whenever I pass those waiting places she never have to go back with me anymore, the time is always there and cruelly ignore me. She seems real but in seconds her image was blown softly off away from me and I cant hold my Nana's hand, nor even to get her attention to greet her... no more of that... All I can call her name is when my visits at her memorial place in Heong Giam See Temple. *Tears streaking down more missing of Nana* I dont wish i have any love nor memories sometimes with painful heart experiences but i am a person to love and be loved. I tried hard but failed. I can see more and more challenges of these coming my way which I am kinda worry a little but I will be brave to face it because love is what I chose and I should not back away from it...

LOVE opposites of the pain is Pain to me. Some said it is hate but hate seems to be more of a friend to jealousy. I chose Pain as the opposite den hate because hate has not mush of a meaning to me not worth my time at all.

I just cant accept it when reality hits.. or whenever I used the Hiru Scar gel the smell of it is pleasant becum suck cuz it provokes my sad days living with the worms and krocroaches in Sabah in Sipitang. But it bcums a worthwhile memory whn its sweet in de end at heart whn dat my good buddie froggie image appears in my mind to calm me down and givng me support at all times in Sabah.
All senses..colours, images, similar taste, smell, touch, or familiar voice, feelings or parfume, or places many many more makes me who i am a person with a heart and full of memories..i wish i can record as much as i can before I might hv alzheimer when i get older..I wana remember to feel, to love and to cherish as human as long as I live in this world with my Love ones, I used to have 5 all together but Nana & Yeye had went off. I oly left 3 most important souls I love in my life. 

If I could choose I will choose back the same person to love for many lifetimes. and to be the same old me which sounds like immortal. Sometimes this is the reason that makes me unhappy why we need to learn and go through all these with the deepest mystery no universe can show us why? Sigh let the puzzle solves itself till my final breath but in the meantime now I can love you Froggie as long as we live. How I wish the same thing as yours we have started a live we want in our early 20s. Time is getting too fast now after past 25.

I am an emotional sensitive person and hearts can be moved yet strong in my own principles and thats me. YET..da down side, I rarely show it and I knew I duno how to show it when I requested the photographer to flash me da mirror to see how I should smile before taking my passport photo. I know I am born quiet and scary in my emotionless face plus im a very famous introvert, yet extrovert whenever I want to be. No one can really judge who I am really and my appearance are total exact of opposite of my heart. Like I say..human is more complicated den any hightech devices only.


I dare and brave to choose LOVE but afraid at the same time to face hurt deeply in my heart and soul but I do not have the Heart to just leave LOVE all alone. LOVE should be one of the quest in life <3

Fahrenheit JIRO....Dedication!

Yeah my hunni knows well in Korea i like GD and in Taiwan i like Jiro his style cool and with Skulls lol nice now latest series I am watching by Jiro right after Absolute Boyfirend (about him being a robot in love), now here comes KO ONE 2....yippie!

Video on Absolute Boyfriend.... Sighh sad case story

KO ONE 2  終極一班2 (Ultimate Class 2) ......Jiro 汪東城!!!

The interview....omg i can't wait to colour my hair already....^__^ hehe ...He looks great as always!

My Sunday with hunni

It's brunch plus dinner and supper and weekday breakfast and snacks grocery shop.. glad today i get yogurt, my yummie cheezy cake which my hunni suggested and i was suppose to get my Teriyaki chicken subway but outta stock so ended up Spicy Italian is good too plus a hot HOT Cuppaccino..

Some grocery shop and trying to replace other snacks besides just eating chips.. gotta make it less a habit now =)

I love subway with Jalapeno and olives...sauce is definitely always olive oil, chilli and honey mustard..Hou hou sek n____n Last but not least my large Brown Rice Green Milk tea with no topping n slight sugar 30% only is da last to get...hoping to last it all night while doing graphic Love It..!

I LOVE MY SUNDAY spending time with my sweet hunni and eat nice food with hun hun while doing graphic and video...my best quality and learning time together. (n_____n) always find meanings in life and love our time together.
Hug hug litto froggie ╮(╯3╰)╭我愛你青蛙子！

At Ah Mo place Birthday treat

It's great Saturday lunch with my papa.. ^_^ Thanks so much and appreciate papa for this yummy treat and puffy Ang Pao. It's a good family get together to a new place with papa.

The Ah Mo place has no variety of coffee except only one type which is Black Brewed Coffee. No variety of cakes especially when i am craving for cheesecake, they only have a homemade cupcake which i can get easily in other stores with 2 times cheaper price ..sigh..

However, the healthy portion of meal is just nice for me and it is good too. So far we have tried 3 types it's reasonable price for these days. All we ask for are how dey cook it nicely with a hearty display.

LOL the impression to me is just so so cuz cakes and coffee are lacking T___T when i want to eat dem so bad... lastly, the cashier counted 2 plates of the crusted Emerald fish instead of one. I was thinkin lol they ruin the final impression hahahaaaa...*faint* Afterall to spend time with my family is all i ask for a true quality time to look forward.

Skin Nourishment in Year 2012- 2013

Recently these are the skin care range i will use...during...

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ACNE PROBLEMS

MOISTURE TO PREVENT FINE LINES