I'm sure...but I do express it in another way but I'm not sure if it's right anymore. As long as de other person is happy, If doesnt want me to talk too much in case dat person disappear again I guess dat insomnia of mine will stay forever with sweet bitter dreams..Dreams that words can't describe... I'm sure.. cuz im jz happy to see dat online "green" status available even though in silence I'm happy...cuz I have things I gota do by August for what I've promised I will do it but will never ever let anyone make me feel doubtful anymore cuz I'm clear it's suppose to be done since many times last year.
I'm not sure it's true but like Matno said sumtimes we need to be cruel in order to be kind so Once I decided dat person not gonna change what I want the way I lead this life. I gotta do something before I regret for life. I don't want to live a life where there is a second thought pop out everyday "What if...?" I don't want that to happen and regret the rest of my life after living another 15 years.. It's AWFUL..
I miss that person everyday every second no matter how busy or quiet I am...
Sigh...yet again. U just gota do what u can to change the future now. I finally realised last few weeks deep in my heart; my decision doesnt connect to anyone or due to any situation cuz the problem is in me and I have to solve it myself before I go Tanjung Rambutan again =.= It's what my heart knows the real answer but do you have the guts to face the reality or bear the impact you might do to others? Or bear no matter what the consequences are, even living in loneliness? I only know one thing...Live life without regrets is what I really want.
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