Looking at my Pinky Mini Journey Diary, there goes my anticipation looking forward. With the mind power to save, to be discipline and do what I should be doing and to love people who love me regardless of who I am <3 that's what I Love about my BB Froggie my willpower to live. But to remember my odd dreams this morning seems like there are issues of difficult people that I choose not to deal with cuz will bring some despair and mind constraint. I am gaining a quality mood to deal with my art, I had writers block, however there won't be any artistic block occurs to-date, it is the dumbass MOOD and head heaviness blocking me out.
That's my emo writings for today sum positive as well as negative balance of Ying&Yang as usual..cuz da weather is very cooling but so inconsistent till i feel kinda Bluey...Alright gonna get movin'.
Saturday 5 October 2013
Friday 19 July 2013
90 Degrees
I am just randomly doing something and left some patches of design to wrap up the whole meaning of 90Degrees. I need...MOOD lol...Hope later some inspiration will seeped into my soul. Then it will be and added graphic to my site collection YEAY!
Sunday 28 April 2013
SWEET sleeping froggie
It is a day to remember to see my sweet froggie smiling into sleep n relaxed forehead.... *Hugsssss tight* it is really a day to remember <3
Sunday 13 January 2013
Strong Human Senses
Sumhow I have always knew through psychologically human's memory is a widespread of an intriguing technology complicated then any other technology devices.. Memory stored is infinite and codes down various types of situation, plus more den 5 senses are working the same time including things that provokes our memory to arise. Such as now what deeply reminds my time spent in being in love yet in silent moments was the hot aroma of the hazelnut old town coffee. Everytime I drink, the taste of it brought me back to the times right exactly where we were, brought back the moment in time. It is hard to explain as I am most sensitive person towards senses and emotions.
Yesterday I stopped by SP Tesco, however my mind was telling me to avoid lookin at the KFC or Old Town coffee shop because it will only made me see how my dearest Nana spent her kopi time there or even grumble at me and papa whn she was still... alive... Places where she went with us and time spent brought back a lot memories to me evev a few seconds of flashes goes a longway deeply pierced right into my heart, it felt heavy in my heart and painful to breath.
I passed by old streets, or any mall all I can do was remembering to see her there and then waiting for me and Papa patiently with a hot Milo as when she aged she cant follow us that much walking around but I will walk with her slowly no matter it is inch by inch or cm by cm I held her hand and prevent her to lope sided ways (that was when an early symptom of stroke I should have realised T__T..sigh *tears* missing Nana) ...Still remember the warmth of her hand, the grip of her fingers and the veins and marks that has developed on her hands and fingers over time. I can remember every inch of her skin on hands and her face which I am an art person I stored all my images so damn well It just hits me in the heart feeling sore bleeding tearing and hurts, especially for the person I love like Nana...very very well everything about her.. T_T sigh.
It hurts so bad to see her in my imagination my Nana is sitting in the food stall with a hot cuppa Milo or Kopi waiting for me after I bought my things but this time it is entirely different...her image is only there waiting but I never step into that McD or KFC or held up her hand again to bring her to my car and driver her home together... Her image of sitting there just stood still clearly whenever I pass those waiting places she never have to go back with me anymore, the time is always there and cruelly ignore me. She seems real but in seconds her image was blown softly off away from me and I cant hold my Nana's hand, nor even to get her attention to greet her... no more of that... All I can call her name is when my visits at her memorial place in Heong Giam See Temple. *Tears streaking down more missing of Nana* I dont wish i have any love nor memories sometimes with painful heart experiences but i am a person to love and be loved. I tried hard but failed. I can see more and more challenges of these coming my way which I am kinda worry a little but I will be brave to face it because love is what I chose and I should not back away from it...
LOVE opposites of the pain is Pain to me. Some said it is hate but hate seems to be more of a friend to jealousy. I chose Pain as the opposite den hate because hate has not mush of a meaning to me not worth my time at all.
I just cant accept it when reality hits.. or whenever I used the Hiru Scar gel the smell of it is pleasant becum suck cuz it provokes my sad days living with the worms and krocroaches in Sabah in Sipitang. But it bcums a worthwhile memory whn its sweet in de end at heart whn dat my good buddie froggie image appears in my mind to calm me down and givng me support at all times in Sabah.
All senses..colours, images, similar taste, smell, touch, or familiar voice, feelings or parfume, or places many many more makes me who i am a person with a heart and full of memories..i wish i can record as much as i can before I might hv alzheimer when i get older..I wana remember to feel, to love and to cherish as human as long as I live in this world with my Love ones, I used to have 5 all together but Nana & Yeye had went off. I oly left 3 most important souls I love in my life.
If I could choose I will choose back the same person to love for many lifetimes. and to be the same old me which sounds like immortal. Sometimes this is the reason that makes me unhappy why we need to learn and go through all these with the deepest mystery no universe can show us why? Sigh let the puzzle solves itself till my final breath but in the meantime now I can love you Froggie as long as we live. How I wish the same thing as yours we have started a live we want in our early 20s. Time is getting too fast now after past 25.
I am an emotional sensitive person and hearts can be moved yet strong in my own principles and thats me. YET..da down side, I rarely show it and I knew I duno how to show it when I requested the photographer to flash me da mirror to see how I should smile before taking my passport photo. I know I am born quiet and scary in my emotionless face plus im a very famous introvert, yet extrovert whenever I want to be. No one can really judge who I am really and my appearance are total exact of opposite of my heart. Like I say..human is more complicated den any hightech devices only.
I dare and brave to choose LOVE but afraid at the same time to face hurt deeply in my heart and soul but I do not have the Heart to just leave LOVE all alone. LOVE should be one of the quest in life <3
Yesterday I stopped by SP Tesco, however my mind was telling me to avoid lookin at the KFC or Old Town coffee shop because it will only made me see how my dearest Nana spent her kopi time there or even grumble at me and papa whn she was still... alive... Places where she went with us and time spent brought back a lot memories to me evev a few seconds of flashes goes a longway deeply pierced right into my heart, it felt heavy in my heart and painful to breath.
I passed by old streets, or any mall all I can do was remembering to see her there and then waiting for me and Papa patiently with a hot Milo as when she aged she cant follow us that much walking around but I will walk with her slowly no matter it is inch by inch or cm by cm I held her hand and prevent her to lope sided ways (that was when an early symptom of stroke I should have realised T__T..sigh *tears* missing Nana) ...Still remember the warmth of her hand, the grip of her fingers and the veins and marks that has developed on her hands and fingers over time. I can remember every inch of her skin on hands and her face which I am an art person I stored all my images so damn well It just hits me in the heart feeling sore bleeding tearing and hurts, especially for the person I love like Nana...very very well everything about her.. T_T sigh.
It hurts so bad to see her in my imagination my Nana is sitting in the food stall with a hot cuppa Milo or Kopi waiting for me after I bought my things but this time it is entirely different...her image is only there waiting but I never step into that McD or KFC or held up her hand again to bring her to my car and driver her home together... Her image of sitting there just stood still clearly whenever I pass those waiting places she never have to go back with me anymore, the time is always there and cruelly ignore me. She seems real but in seconds her image was blown softly off away from me and I cant hold my Nana's hand, nor even to get her attention to greet her... no more of that... All I can call her name is when my visits at her memorial place in Heong Giam See Temple. *Tears streaking down more missing of Nana* I dont wish i have any love nor memories sometimes with painful heart experiences but i am a person to love and be loved. I tried hard but failed. I can see more and more challenges of these coming my way which I am kinda worry a little but I will be brave to face it because love is what I chose and I should not back away from it...
LOVE opposites of the pain is Pain to me. Some said it is hate but hate seems to be more of a friend to jealousy. I chose Pain as the opposite den hate because hate has not mush of a meaning to me not worth my time at all.
I just cant accept it when reality hits.. or whenever I used the Hiru Scar gel the smell of it is pleasant becum suck cuz it provokes my sad days living with the worms and krocroaches in Sabah in Sipitang. But it bcums a worthwhile memory whn its sweet in de end at heart whn dat my good buddie froggie image appears in my mind to calm me down and givng me support at all times in Sabah.
All senses..colours, images, similar taste, smell, touch, or familiar voice, feelings or parfume, or places many many more makes me who i am a person with a heart and full of memories..i wish i can record as much as i can before I might hv alzheimer when i get older..I wana remember to feel, to love and to cherish as human as long as I live in this world with my Love ones, I used to have 5 all together but Nana & Yeye had went off. I oly left 3 most important souls I love in my life.
If I could choose I will choose back the same person to love for many lifetimes. and to be the same old me which sounds like immortal. Sometimes this is the reason that makes me unhappy why we need to learn and go through all these with the deepest mystery no universe can show us why? Sigh let the puzzle solves itself till my final breath but in the meantime now I can love you Froggie as long as we live. How I wish the same thing as yours we have started a live we want in our early 20s. Time is getting too fast now after past 25.
I am an emotional sensitive person and hearts can be moved yet strong in my own principles and thats me. YET..da down side, I rarely show it and I knew I duno how to show it when I requested the photographer to flash me da mirror to see how I should smile before taking my passport photo. I know I am born quiet and scary in my emotionless face plus im a very famous introvert, yet extrovert whenever I want to be. No one can really judge who I am really and my appearance are total exact of opposite of my heart. Like I say..human is more complicated den any hightech devices only.
I dare and brave to choose LOVE but afraid at the same time to face hurt deeply in my heart and soul but I do not have the Heart to just leave LOVE all alone. LOVE should be one of the quest in life <3
Monday 7 January 2013
Fahrenheit JIRO....Dedication!
Yeah my hunni knows well in Korea i like GD and in Taiwan i like Jiro his style cool and with Skulls lol nice now latest series I am watching by Jiro right after Absolute Boyfirend (about him being a robot in love), now here comes KO ONE 2....yippie!
Video on Absolute Boyfriend.... Sighh sad case story
KO ONE 2 終極一班2 (Ultimate Class 2) ......Jiro 汪東城!!!
The interview....omg i can't wait to colour my hair already....^__^ hehe ...He looks great as always!
Video on Absolute Boyfriend.... Sighh sad case story
KO ONE 2 終極一班2 (Ultimate Class 2) ......Jiro 汪東城!!!
The interview....omg i can't wait to colour my hair already....^__^ hehe ...He looks great as always!
Sunday 6 January 2013
My Sunday with hunni
I LOVE MY SUNDAY spending time with my sweet hunni and eat nice food with hun hun while doing graphic and video...my best quality and learning time together. (n_____n) always find meanings in life and love our time together.
Hug hug litto froggie ╮(╯3╰)╭我愛你青蛙子！
Hug hug litto froggie ╮(╯3╰)╭我愛你青蛙子！
At Ah Mo place Birthday treat
It's great Saturday lunch with my papa.. ^_^ Thanks so much and appreciate papa for this yummy treat and puffy Ang Pao. It's a good family get together to a new place with papa.
The Ah Mo place has no variety of coffee except only one type which is Black Brewed Coffee. No variety of cakes especially when i am craving for cheesecake, they only have a homemade cupcake which i can get easily in other stores with 2 times cheaper price ..sigh..
However, the healthy portion of meal is just nice for me and it is good too. So far we have tried 3 types it's reasonable price for these days. All we ask for are how dey cook it nicely with a hearty display.
LOL the impression to me is just so so cuz cakes and coffee are lacking T___T when i want to eat dem so bad... lastly, the cashier counted 2 plates of the crusted Emerald fish instead of one. I was thinkin lol they ruin the final impression hahahaaaa...*faint* Afterall to spend time with my family is all i ask for a true quality time to look forward.
Saturday 5 January 2013
Skin Nourishment in Year 2012- 2013
Friday 4 January 2013
A Special Parcel, My True Love
Just like any other day right after New Year holiday I was surprised by Ching Ching's Special Parcel right on my office table <3 All I know it brings me love and warmth to unwrap the gifts from a far.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
I love you Ching Ching and THANK YOU for your most wonderful handmade card and putting all your efforts in wrapping all the gifts means more then anything else to me.
My heart beats with joy and your love to me ~^O^~
Words can't describe how much I love you and your utmost sincere love are the most amazing love that has happen to me in this life...makes me want to hold and hug you so tight.
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