speck of dust

Emotions can't be played over and over, No regrets and no return, Am nothing but a speck of dust to you, It's ok even there's no one to turn to; I thought your words were real, Seeing a future wonderful rainbow ahead, Had enough of games and heartache, Not gonna let da history repeat, Probably I should have just walk back In the rain back in my own shelter just For your own joy and sunshine ahead, You don't feel it and you can't feel it How much I cherish the way we are, Disappointment... An intolerant person won't even deserve A speck of dust like me. Really.. What do you really want from me? What do you want more from me? When you don't even believe it's true.

Like the way it hurts...

Just gonna stand there and watch me cry.. It's alright cuz I like the way it hurts. Isn't my fault whenever my care was being rejected again n again it hurts.

Monday blue turns to bitter

My day was ruined by a ridiculous argument hell of an early morning a mood spoiler raising voice on me which I hated it so much! Step my tail even encourage me not to work. I was like ur ady long time blacklisted n who r u to raise ur MF voice on me until my flu got worse n voice in revenge got hoarse n a day gone not fit n missed wat I'm suppose to do earning A LIVING!! A person dat discourage wat ur doing for his/her own interest in ONE HELL OF A MF SELFISH PERSON! this will be final with u I'm getting hell out!

Sing sing sing...till a lil bit regret

I duno what strikes me with this stupid thought while singing with them... My mind starts to regret of what..I really duno.. Is it about what I've chosen? NO WAY! What the hell is wrong with me? Is it because my subconscious mind is trying to get align with my concious logic system that know what I'm doing now is right? Yeah I just read the book twice and I know it is conflicting; subconscious vs conscious mind now and I'm not gonna let emotions take over my logic positive mind am I? I gota continue do what I have chosen and trash the negative feelings deep down inside that suddenly float out of NO Where??!! Just watever...watever...la.. =.= I gota be strong, endurance is my number1 trait and I gota go through this alone... Fighting fighting alright~ Ja ne~

Select your choice of food n make it yummy and enjoy some readin!

Cooked oats with raisins and this yummy thing above here is papaya cubes with apricot yogurt =D That's what I called my HEaltHy Brunch for the day.. So full~

Look at that Ms Lolita reminds me one of my heels >.<

My FAV Spot @Borders... Manga!!! If possible I wud like to sit there enjoy sum readin plus that smell of aromatic Starbucks coffee inside here makes me stay but need a sweater if not it's too cold as usual. Dislike the centrelized air-cond.

Tonality

It is not the tone of concern from you of what I could not find... but it is the tone of suspicion that makes me annoyed. The cause of lack of trust but anyways I need it No more. I jz back my hometown for God's sake.. =.=

[YG21Subs] I Don't Care - 2NE1 [ENG SUBBED]

Man I really dun care lolzz... jz do what i gota do =p I loveee SANDARA park!!! ^___^

complication

Life's a complex even this beautiful simple necklace can turned out entangled into a tiny mini small bunches. Oh Lord help me... Frm 12sumthin till now really needs abundance of my patience to finally make it bck the original pattern cuz I really really can wait to wear it lolz. Not to mention the horoscope were right again this month really unexpected to me left me wondering why those people turn out to be a lot more expressive den I expected. All I noe is I can be there for dem or I dun evn care to those who don't deserve.

Big Bang ~ Tell Me Goodbye [MV] [ENG SUB]

MY BIg Bang Forever~ Tell Me GoodBye... really a goodbye den.

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing - Yuna Ito (Cover from Aerosmith)

All of a sudden my heart feels that it beats every beat of sadness as I will leave tomorrow ucz I Miss All of You very much already... and coincidentally is on Mooncake Festival Day T___T

Tulips

T___T suck for me...so cold after the rain.
Been emo for short while n tulips cross my mind I think besides lilies or roses my beloved flower is tulip since young. I dun mind watever various colours as long as it is tulips...cuz maybe its easy to draw for a kid like me.

From white to yellow to pink, cream to purple or veriegated colours... I think I jz love them for their simplicity perhaps since kid i av instict dat my life wud be kinda complex so I guess tulips' simplicity can balance up my mind a bit hahaa...giving me some hope. I think they look like roses too in a way.

*Sigh*i Love tulips..u made my life perfect and complete whenever I'm alone and listening to Jeff Chang songs whn I feel melancholy. Thx for accompany this poor soul of mine.

the crescent dream

The crescent moon finally appears tonight outside the gate I'm standing here. It's a countdown night of 10days more that I wont be looking at this moon from the same corner anymore.

So i'm bored and best interest now is starting to look back what the horoscope was telling me. I don't believe it 100% but I'm sure what it says here is exactly what I'm feeling now.

Feelings of "uncertainty and chaos" well... exaggerated I guess.. but somehow it feels like it. But What I hope for is the last line..
"Many aspects of your life is changing now, and you'll have to get used to a new order"
I do hope I am doing it right now in the midst of uncertainty and chaos meaning the very bleak road I am getting myself into but I'll never stop fighting to chase the mist away.  

I still wonder what I feel is it true or I will someday wake up from a broken dream, reminisence the memories.. I might just vanish entirely including the laughter we used to have and accepting changes is part of reality. All I can say is 'Aku Anak Malaysia!' There's nothing I cannot deal with.

偏爱 张芸京

Lol this clip is great especialy with Zhang Yun Jing's vocal

Taeyang - I Need a Girl [Eng Sub/Rom/Hangul] (동영배) ft. G.D (BigBang) & D...

Another good song yeahh...

I Need a Girl (English Lyrics)

I'm tired of being alone
Sick of being single
I think I need a girl
I need a girl like

One that speaks without thinking
Not a little child, but one that will embrace me
Not a girl that plays around sometimes when she's bored
But one that will only love me
Even if she stays still and guys hand her their phoone
That kind of girl that will proudly take out and show my picture
Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too


A kind of girl that looks better in jeans than a skirt
A girl that will eat the kimchi fried rice that I make instead
A girl who looks young even though she's old
I like that kind of girl
(Know what I mean)


A girl that acts shy, but knows how to be bold
Always pretends to careful of her behavior
But when you're with her
Hmm, y'all know what I'm talking about
Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl, I need a girl
I like this kind of girl

Looks are not an issue
But a cute girl who knows style
Even though our hobbies are different
Our tastes are the same
A girl that I can relate to a lot
When we watch movies or listen to music
(Yes!) I love girls, girls I do adore
In front of people, she has principles as she plays
In front of me, she's like "Aing, I don't know"
A voice that wakes me up in the morning
(Morning Kiss) I want to start the day
I'll learn on your knees at night
As I listen to a lullaby
I want to dream of you


Make my heart race again
Make me able to create sweet songs again
You know don't need no more
It's just not like that
You're the person I want to give my heart to

Girl, I need a girl
Girl, I get, gotta make you're mine
I'm treat you right, baby
Girl, I need a girl
Pretty no matter what she does
A pretty body, too
Girl, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me too
Girl, I need a girl
Girl, I need a girl
Girl, are you listening to me?
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

Girl, I need a girl